Wednesday, October 15, 2008

homesick

i'm a little homesick for göttingen. i didn't expect that. mierda!

1 comment:

Christina said...

i'm horribly homesick. for göttingen. it's bad enough for me to wonder whether it was a stupid idea to come here -- or to leave göttingen. i'm even thinking about the possibility of returning. (which is crazy, as returning is retreating. also, i'm not thinking straight: göttingen seems golden to me now, but i *know* that this is not my major feeling when i'm actually living there.)

i'm prone to homesickness -- that's not new to me -- but i never experienced it in germany. so: what does that mean? where does it come from? what are the determinants? what course of action is suggested?
and how did it happen that göttingen became my home without me making any efforts or having that goal? what does make a place a home?

i'm kind of annoyed. how do people make decisions that seem/ are fine in the long run? there are, obviously, emotional states of mind which are not trustworthy. so, i guess, the idea is to stick to conventional reasoning. this is what i did: i counted the things that made me unsatisfied in göttingen and decided to go somewhere else -- in spite of several reasons on the other side. but then: dissatisfaction -- isn't that a feeling, too?! what does make dissatisfaction more trustworthy than homesickness?

i guess, i was happy, but dissatisfied in gö. is that possible? or should dissatisfaction have some consequences concerning happiness?
now i'm not (yet?!) satisfied and additionally quite unhappy. that's shitty. (but can only get better, i guess.)

a hug towards göttingen...